I dont even know what to call this post
Lately alot of bullshit is being thrown my way. So lets start from the beginning.
Firstly, going to work used to be one of the most exciting things for me. I mean it gets me up in the morning with a smile, despite the long hours ah. Cause meeting friends at work was cool and fun. I mean we get to talk and share stuff even if its on thw stupidest subjects. But recently, the boss has been getting on all our nerves. And slowly, each one of my friends are either quitting for good or transferring to another department. So lets see what the stupid boss did. All of used to get at least an hour break for every 4-5 houra that we worked. But recently, the boss has been skipping all our breaks and it even happened that we work 8 straight hours without getting a break. SERIOUSLY?! Next thing, he's been cutting our pay for every single little thing. Even happened to my friend and myself that we didnt even get our 2 weeks pay. (i get paid every 2 weeks) he just decided that we shouldnt get our pay because we were rude for confronting him abiut his crappish attitude. I mean come on man, we're telling you its wrong so that you can change and people wont hate you. And here you are, earning a whole bunch of haters right AMEK KAU!
Second thing, parents. Mum and dad, i go out everyday to work. Not to hang out at orchard road or bugis. Shouldnt you be happy that i am actually working and not asking money from you? Last time when i keep asking for cash, you nag at me. Now that i dont ask for cash also you want to nag at me? Make up your mind can? I go to work also, everytime i get my pay, i bring out to shop or treat you to some expensive place that you want to eat at. Like that also still want to complain about me going out everyday. I go out to get money also wrong. I never earn my own cash, you tell me to go out and get my own cash. Ape kau nak ni skrg? Nak aku keje ke tk? Nak aku buat duit sendiri ke amek duit kau hari2? Tak paham ah ngan krg ni. Mcm2 ah kau nak. Tk pernah nak puas!
Kay laa one more kay. Brothers. OLDER brothers. Age gap is 16 and 11 years respectively since i'm 'blessed' with 2 brothers. That was sarcasm if you didnt already notice. Okay, its a lie that if sometimes it isnt a blessing. Its cool having older brothers and you being the only girl. They PROTECT YOU LIKE HELL! And here comes the curse, they proect you so much, you feel suffocated. Go everywhere also must report strength. Even up til now. Like some sort of criminal sia. But then the problem isnt that. Well the age gap is, well sometimes. They are successful men with their own families and stable jobs and income. And then there is me, the youngest sibling still in the first year of poly. And then the comparison kicks in. "Yasmin, look at your brothers. They are very successful. Your aim now is to do better than them. Beat their success. Study hard." Studying is not the problem. Beating their success is. Newsflash for everyone, my eldest brother is a harbour pilot working for PSA and his namecard has Captain Mohd Gaifaralee. And my second brother is just 2 months away from being promoted to being manager of the production team in the southeast region. And here i am, a mass comm student still in my first year or poly. How the heck am i suppose to surpass all that? And they are only with diploma qualifications. How the heck? Bullshit ah if i dont want to be successful but then seeing my own siblings as my rivals isnt healthy in a family. They can be my idols but not rivals.
Such crappish feelings are filling me right now. I dont even know how to feel or what to think about all this.
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