When everything's meant to be broken~

"Its hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember." -  Chris Brown
Photo Credits to Vivian Ng

So hey guys. Today was once again photography. And i got a chance to be the subject for my friend's photo. We had to do portraits. All she told me was to look into the distance and think of one person. It can be a happy memory or a sad one. Then she said the word boyfriend and everything came crashing onto me. Like it just happened. I looked at the things in front of me and how different they looked. Everything held a memory for me. Without me realising, i literally looked like someone took my happiness away. I genuinely looked sad in the photo. I never thought i was capable to giving a genuinely sad photo.

I took some photos of my friends. And i would not say they were awesome but they were good enough considered the amount of time we had to experiment and try out every single shot. Here are some.

Natural Lighting from the window. Just to capture the smile and features.

Rembrandt Lighting. Just to illuminate one side of the face, leaving the other side only slightly lit up. 

Split lighting. Simple and easy but difficult to capture emotions.

Broad lighting. A way to give one subject a feeling of arrogance or superficiality.

My models were definitely great. We had out laughs and we taught each other and helped each other out. I'm still waiting for my own photos from my friend. And so, the day in school ended like that.

After school, i had my driving class and i swear, the feeling of actually being behind the wheel and learning everything proper form the basics felt good. I mean i can drive but knowing the right way to handle a car must be the most amazing feeling. Like you finally can drive on the road without being stopped and fined by the traffic police. Okay, i am weird but just ignore that okay.

And also, something stupid happened to me today. To have thought that i should notice it earlier. I never thought anyone would stoop so low and be so cowardly to approach me with a different identity. Its enough that you don't learn form your mistakes and now you make an even bigger one. I don't understand. You cant seem to understand simple words like, LEAVE ME ALONE. Like fuck you! How much more pain do i ahve to go through to know you're mature enough to get your balls together and actually understand that you're being a dick. All i gotta say is i'm utterly disappointed and i hate you. If u ever try to talk to me again, i swear i will find you and slap you so hard, you'll hate me just as much as i hate you.